Ramadan Reflection Day 5, 2019

The news will keep coming and going.  Havoc will reap and some good things will shine their light, but Ramadan only comes once a year.  Friendships can be sustained as rizq decrees, but Ramadan only comes once a year. Just as it’s mentioned only once in the Quran, it is a special blessing that arrives for a small amount of time: a single month solely to fortify your iman and relationship with Allah swt.

Tawba

Let go of the things that keep your life tied with yusra and usra. Set it aside for those few hours you have with yourself from your day to day schedule and let yourself be cleansed with the remembrance and glory of Allah swt. Our hearts need cleansing with seeking forgiveness because really, there’s no way knowing what sins have been committed and what sins Allah has omitted.

Taqwa

Become aware of Allah swt as if you see Him watching over you.  Let your hunger pangs be witness to Allah’s mercy- the iftar you are anticipating at every moment of fatigue experienced.   Now fast forward to your very own passing.  The pangs of mawt squeezing each breath of life out of you.  Al hamdulillah, as Muslims, we anticipate al Jannah. Belief in this great anticipation is the true  end of sorrow in this world, and evolves sabr into ihsan- content that brings joy even through all the sad suffering experienced, not only is it content, it is control and hilm.  The kind that Prophet Ibrahim As had when he was getting thrown into the fire.

Now what is it that gets into our way when striving for such sakeenah?  What corrupts our hearts and distracts our minds from deep belief in al Akhira?  What takes us far away from Allah swt, The Creator of everything?

You are Responsible for your Iman and its cultivation.

The mindless complications of life, of course!  It’s not just sin that hurts us.  It’s leisure and irresponsibility in handling our circumstances.  Fight your hearts from becoming lazy and giving into to easy joys of life.  These things cloud our vision and make us settle for less!  And I’m talking about worldly things here.  There’s a difference between being thankful (shukr) for what we have vs settling for less out of laziness.  

I think I should write more but I need to help my mom in the kitchen 🙂

JazakAllahukhairan

May Allah strengthen our sanity with hilm, rushd, and ihsan ^_^

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Is Past to Blame?

Tell me, how am I supposed to feel

When all I get are crazy things to hear

my childhood was full of fights and nights of tears

I grew up shy with no words to ever say

I’ve never had no friends and today it’s still the same.

And now I’m always afraid of what move to make.

I feel like I’m stuck- I’ve lost from the beginning

Maybe it’s fate, or maybe I’m sinning.

I was never free, despite what it appears to be

But I’ve held onto faith and smile for hope.

I know I’m alone, but from above there’s a rope

for me to climb up, and let all else go-

ignore what’s happening, and keep writing

my list of wishes,

like how I wish someone would do the dishes-

I still struggle to live as life should be

But maybe one day, I’ll live as me

With a tough past, but free of grief.

and maybe I’ll finally write

when I’m not sad, but happy.

 

Run Away to Heaven

Run away to heaven

leave everything behind

even the things that made you happy,

because it will all weigh you down.

Run away to heaven.

The trek is only so long.

So be patient as you sprint

and take deep breathes

as you sprint along.

 

But I’m running to my grave.

I don’t know at which age I’ll reach it.

It worries me that I’ll make mistakes,

even as I divorce the world.

If I’m running to my grave,

which is in all directions,

whichever I face, does it make a difference-

whatever decision I make?

A world through beauty

It’s because you aren’t perfect and you cry because you know it

But then when they tell you you’re beautiful enough times

you start to believe it..

and then you see it.

And seeing your own beauty is like gazing into another world. Because your view of the world changes when you see it through your beauty. A beauty that you believe in.

and thus you believe in the world that you now tread in.

and happily live in it because you are now in it.

 

 

Science of Shame

It’s shame we seek to understand

But we’re too ashamed

Of societal reprimand

So we go on forward

Ignoring it until it burns a hole

Forgetting that shame

Is a chemical

And can become lethal

When mixed with the heat

Of ego

Until it explodes

And harms others more

Than it harmed you